my dog

When people feel emotional pain, the same areas of 

the brain get activated as when people feel physical pain:

the anterior insula and the anterior cingulate cortex.
Emotional and Physical Pain Activate Similar Brain Regions | Psychology Today

So my dog is missing.  I feel like a terrible pet owner.  She's out there somewhere.  I want her back.  

I am really mad at my husband.  
I am totally blaming him right now.  He doesn't like her.  
I almost say "hate" but I can't believe that.  Although its probably true.
I thought about her a lot today as she was outside but didn't even check on her.
I wanted to let her in but every time I thought about it, I thought about his reaction to anything she does.  
She eats toilet paper, tissue, underwear, q-tips.
She licks pillows and blankets that are far too often left or tossed on the floor by the kids.
She eats my and my daughter's used pads.
She hates going outside when it's raining, thundering or when the grass is wet. 
She looks at me when he calls her to go out as if she defers judgement to me.
He is unable to get her to go into the crate.  She goes in for me.