Saturday, April 9, 2011

Who's Club am I in?

I read that gossiping is a way to to deal with feeling anxious in a social setting.  Hmm...that's a thinker.

I can totally see that with me, it's a way to try to connect with whomever you talking to.  Us vs. them sort of thing, right?

I haven't posted in a very long time...I think I have progressed.  I'm always progressing, I guess, but I think I have gained something significant, can't put my finger on it.

I had a mental breakdown at work...really it was a crying jag triggered by an adult bully just being a bully.  I think that somehow, since then, I have felt better somehow.  I mean, bring it on life, I can handle it.  So why did I break down and cry like a baby?  Well, I try to be the pleaser, be pleasing to everyone, help everyone, play fair, team work team work, etc.  Well, guess what, others don't play fair and when I needed someone to do me a small favor that they were completely capable of doing, they refused, just because they could.  Anyway, that may have been a milestone.  I need to do things based on my values and nothing else, not because I want damn kudos from others.

I went to a seminar this morning for work on how to get along with others...we took a personality test and one of the attributes in my "type" is that I need praise.  Boy, do I. 

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